My mom and I were watching the Golden Globes on Sunday. Ricky Gervas was painfully funny, which was hilarious at home, but maybe at the hotel where the awards were taking place, he probably made the room a little, a lot, uncomfortable with his brutal honesty. The camera panned to Angelina and Brad and my mom asked me something about their kids.
I mentioned that Zahara, their oldest daughter, was like 2 weeks younger than Jory, and I said I heard a rumor that she was Brad's favorite.
To which my mom replied, over the other kids?
To which I said, that's the rumor.
To which she said, he may like her a lot, but there's no way he loves her more than his biological children.
To which I asked after I stopped laughing, so if I had a biological child you would love him or her more than the other three?
To which she answered without batting an eye, yes.
I laughed again and let the conversation end. The thought did cross my mind to adopt an embryo and nine months later give birth to a little blonde hair, blue eyed baby and see if she would love that baby or would he or she not be biological enough for her....Somehow I bet giving birth would not be enough for her.
I wanted to ask her, how she would love a bio grandchild more and what would that look like exactly. Would she give this imaginary child more sips of her tea that she drinks in the morning, than she would the other three? Would she give this child more bites of her sandwich or of her food than she would the other three? Would she let this child stay up later than the other three? Would she stop buying things and thinking of the other three when she was out because she had this one grandchild that she shared DNA with?
I know in her heart my mother believes her words to be true though she would willing do anything to protect TTT, to keep them safe, to help them be the greatest children of God. I pray TTT will have the wisdom to loving embrace their Oma when she says wacky things she believes, yet her actions and heart say differently and speak the truth.
Why is it that we delude ourselves? And why is it that we think the pasture is greener on the other side? And why is it so hard for believers in God to accept adoption when we ourselves were and are adopted into our Abba's family? Praise God for giving me the wisdom through Oma's self-delusions and the ability to laugh at it. What would I do without the laughs she unintentionally gives me?
I should ask Oma if she thinks Joseph was just really fond of Jesus, but only truly loved his bio children.
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